funny familiar feeling

Hey folks! Well, now I understand what the doctor meant by depression! I think my mood is a combination of things. I just don't feel like getting up and doing ANYTHING! The not smoking thing is alot harder than aticipated. I have this urgency to smoke the whold darn pack!! Then when I try to not go buy another pack, I freak out! I know this whole thing is a mind game and takes some reprogramming, but I'm just not sure I'm strong enough for this yet! I have already smoked 6 cigarettes today, and my day isn't even half over!! I'm just a little down on myself, because I thought I could do better than this. I have to keep telling myself it's a process, not everything happens in just one day!! I pray that grants me the strength to get through this! I know from experience that the first 30 days is the hardest! I'm only on day 5! Oh well, no need to add extra stress, right?! They can't all be good days, and they can't all be bad days!!!