ARRRGGGGGHHHHHH!

Well folks, the title says it all! Today it has been coming at me from all angles! I have smoked way over my limit today! My neighborhood at first sight is a nice middle class, quiet, friendly neighborhood. Then we moved in!!! I called the police twice today, and they came out to the house. The first time was because this kid who is signifcantly older than my 9 yr. old started beating Eric with a bamboo stick! Then a different kid confronted me and started yelling at me and cussing at me! Well the police took care of the bamboo kid and left. Then an hour or so later I have this woman pounding on my door. Then she started yelling at me telling me I had no right to yell at her "baby" and I got in his face and a whole mess of lies that didn't happen. I told her that her "baby" had no respect for authority, and had a mouth that needed to be restrained. Then the child called me a bitch! I asked the mother if she was going to do anything after he just said that, and she replied by she didn't hear a thing!! ARGH! She would not leave my house until she heard me on the phone with the 911 dispatcher! I now have a neighborhood officer assigned to my house and my street! Hopefully we together can bring some kind of order to this massive chaos! So needless to say the not smoking thing hasn't really been going so well today! My son is black and blue and I am emotionally drained! Tomorrow is a new day, right? Hopefully the world will behave and I can get back on track! My actual quit date is the 21st, so I haven't gone off the deep end yet! When I get stressed, the first thing I do is reach for a cigarette! I am in the middle of reprogramming my mind to not reach or buy a pack of cigarettes. I didn't get addicted in a day, and won't be able to quit in a day! One day at a time! God's will, not mine! Dear lord, just keep the crazies and thier bratty kids out of my way and I might just make it!!!!